Okay, more like *killing* spiders. I have no qualms about admitting that I kill spiders if I can. All things that have more than 4 legs scare the bejesus out of me. I'm not talking a little "oh my there's a spider!" kind of thing ... more like sitting and staring at it in trepidation with a cold tingling going down my spine.
So how does one so afraid of spiders go and kill them? Trust me, each time is a little horror story in my head. Often I get the instruments of spider destruction out in my hand and merely sit or stand there staring at it, unable to move my hands. These instruments of spider destruction vary: vacuum cleaner, fly swatter, fly zapper, cup and paper, a shoe... etc.
I've had some bad experiences with some of those instruments. Vacuum cleaners aren't always strong enough to suck the spider from wherever it might be hiding; if it's out in the open then it's hard to aim the rather small nozzle right on top of it and god forbid I miss and it starts freaking out and crawling insanely. Fly swatter / shoe, again, if I miss then it'll be hell to make that thing stop crawling. Fly zapper isn't flexible enough; I get so scared that the spider will simply crawl out from under it because it's a flat plastic disc. Cup and paper: I am so terrified of sliding that paper under the cup because the spider might escape, then lifting the cup and paper afterwards is horrendous. I've had spiders escape from the cup and paper so many times I no longer trust it.
Today I developed a new way to capture and kill spiders and I think I'll be using it for a while. It still fills me with terror to do it but it's the safest way I've found so far. Sadly it'll only work if it's on a vertical surface or the ceiling. It's kind of like the cup and paper but different. You need a cup (clear one so you can see what's going on inside), maybe some plastic wrap, and some sticky and/or viscous fluid such as lotion, bath gel, liquid detergent, or honey. Today I used bath gel. First, I put the plastic wrap in the cup so that it lines the cup and still comes up and over the lip of the cup. Then I put my bath gel inside liberally. This next part is the part that terrifies me but then you put the cup over the spider and hold it tight against the surface the spider is on. Still pressing tightly against the surface to make sure there is no gap through which the spider can escape, move the cup around so that the spider is compelled to move. Sooner or later the bath gel will ooze its way towards the lip of the cup and sooner or later as you keep the spider moving the spider will end up in it. Give it a little while to thoroughly encase itself inside the liquid then carefully remove the cup in a scooping motion to catch the liquid. Gather up the sides of the plastic wrap, twist, and now you have a little baggie that you can toss in the trash. Alternatively, you can skip out on the plastic wrap and just rinse out the cup with water and send the critter down the drain.
The reason I like this method is because it puts a stop to what terrifies me the most about spiders: their crawling. Especially when they are scared and scuttling around really fast, it gives me the creeps. Also trapping the spider under the cup is a lot easier than smacking it with something as you can be as slow as you want, guaranteeing precision. Only down side is that you probably will get some of the crap you used on your wall/vertical surface.
I just realized that if you have a tile/laminated floor you can still use this method. Just let the liquid drip down and eventually encase the spider and then scoop it up with a paper towel once you're sure it's dead or immobile.
The one I killed today was a pretty big one. Not by world-wide standards but of the ones I've seen in my room it's got to be one of the biggest. It had a white stripe down the middle of its back. So glad it's gone... I know in all probability it wouldn't have done anything to me (that goes for most bugs I encounter really) but it still freaked me the hell out. I have had spider bites before though so I will show no mercy. Besides... I'm too scared to show mercy. Can't transport one live.
Tuesday, 3 July 2012
Thursday, 14 June 2012
Tomb Raider: Anniversary - Review and Reflections
Some parts of this post is on my final TR:A video but the whole post did not fit in the description box so I am posting it in its entirety here. This is a loose review of the game.. loose because I'm not formally reviewing it but just addressing certain things. It is also a reflection on my experiences with it and why I did some things the way I did.
Enjoyability:
First off I want to clarify my statement that this has been one of the best games I've ever played. I feel like I'm going to get some people saying this or that about it. I say it's one of the best games I've played based on my personal enjoyment of the game. I'm well aware of its faults but I genuinely enjoyed this game so much that it takes a place among my top most enjoyed.
This was my first Tomb Raider game so maybe all TR games have this vibe but I loved the feel of accomplishment in this game. Not only does it make you feel good after solving something but it makes you feel like you're actually DOING something. A lot of the times, I find puzzle games annoying because I just don't get the point of the puzzle (why it's there, why the heck I would do it) or the actions involved in the puzzle are really boring (like pick this up, put it there, run back and pick something else up, put it else where). I really liked the fact that I was solving puzzles so Lara could GET somewhere. Not sure if I'm making myself clear but I really connected with Lara and liked getting her to her destinations.
Inconsistencies with the original TR:
I'm aware that this game isn't an exact replica of the first TR game. I know it left out some things or added this or that. The specifics I do not know but personally it makes no difference to me. Those who have a gripe with it do because they were expecting everything they saw in TR. As a TR newbie I really had no problems with this flaw.
Graphics:
I'm very glad they made TR:A because to be honest, I probably would never have experienced any part of TR 1 otherwise. I'm not exactly a graphics whore (I don't really care for crazy detail or life like textures... I don't drool over the graphics of Crysis 2 or anything) but I don't particularly like old 90's era graphics (Another reason I probably would never have played TR 1, unrelated to graphics, is that I hate old school controls). I really liked TR:A's graphics. They weren't up to today's standards but I liked the feel of it. It was modern enough yet had its own... personality to it. Weird as that sounds.
Combat Controls:
You've heard me say SO many times in this LP that Lara is sometimes hard to control in combat. You're probably tired of hearing it since I bitched about it so much! But I looked around at some reviews of this game and it turns out it's not just my personal inability that made it seem like Lara wasn't doing what I told her to... it's a real problem. Other people have said too that the camera and directional controls were really awkward during combat and I will definitely agree. I mean, it's not fun clicking the mouse to continuously shoot for 30 minutes of a boss fight because that's the only way I can get the camera to cooperate and therefore the only way I will get Lara to go the way I want her to most of the time.
The headshot thing was an interesting idea but it did not execute well. Reason being what I just described above... Lara does not go the direction you think she will unless the camera is just right. So outside of boss battles if the game threw me an enemy with headshot inducing abilities I could not do it because I hadn't readied the camera for it.
Poor introduction of some mechanics:
This game's beginning was nice; it was a little tutorial area with little pop ups telling you how to do things, etc. But later in the game it introduced new elements without actually telling you about it. The perpendicular wall jump off the grapple was crazy hard for me simply because I didn't know HOW to do it... Never mind that, how about the fact that I didn't even know it was possible in the first place? Even after accomplishing it in that room where I first encountered it, I still didn't know how to actually do it. It's only near the end of the game (that room with tons of pillars where I inserted two pieces of the scion) that I finally figured it out. What about the speed jump off of poles? I had no idea I could do that until I discovered it by accident in the Obelisk of Khamoon when I just happened to tap space twice. Even then I didn't know that you had to be pressing the direction she's going until that huge water room much later.
Was it all in Croft Manor? I have no clue. Either way, a player isn't guaranteed to play CM first anyways so mechanic introduction should be in the main game.
Reflections:
Even with these faults though, I really enjoyed the game. Not only was this my first TR game but it was my first puzzle platformer. I understand that a lot of viewers probably got pretty frustrated at me at some points because I just would not a see a simple solution; but my counter to that is a psychology based one. I have never played a game like this before so all these puzzles are new to me. Even if someone plays this game for the first time, if they have experience in other games of the same genre, then they have a "schema" in their mind for what to expect in certain situations. Most puzzles aren't 100% unique but take traditional puzzle elements such as "pull a lever and something, somewhere will happen". Now, that particular schema I obviously had... but other more complex ones I did not.
It was interesting to myself to see my own progress. When I first started this game I found it hard to get into because everything was new to me. I had no previous experiences to relate to; therefore, that meant more brain power; therefore, it was something my brain regards as work. It was only half-way or even 3/4 through the game that I truly started enjoying it as much as I said I did because now I had all these experiences that told me what to look for, what I could expect, what a probable solution might be, etc.
More Tomb Raider?:
The day after finishing TR:A I downloaded TR: Legend (from Steam, silly) because I felt my fun with Tomb Raider was just beginning. TR:A laid down some basics for me and at the end I was really starting to get it. I didn't want it to end there so the adventure continues in TR: Legend (which, btw, I am happy to find is a lot like TR:A). I thought about LPing TR: Legend as well but decided against it. I want to experience a TR game without the recording going on. Believe it or not, it does make a difference. With a recording going I'm less likely to try a variety of things and more likely to miss things in my desire to not waste time. That's actually true of all my LPs. I won't speak definitively for other LPers but that's probably the case for a lot of people.
Not only that but the reason it took me so long to finish TR:A is because of the editing involved in the TR videos. Even though I try to not waste time, it's a puzzle game... I'm obviously going to have to stand around gathering information, trying and failing, etc. I have to go through the videos and try to balance things out so the video isn't TOO boring. I need to leave in parts where I explain my thinking and parts where I try something (and either fail or succeed), cut out needless repetition due to death or jump fails, and make sure that if anything new happens, it's shown in the video. It can take anywhere from 10 - 60 minutes to edit a TR:A video. The finale took me about an hour to edit... which is longer than it took to record it. It'll be nice to just go through a TR game without gaps where I'm editing.
Enjoyability:
First off I want to clarify my statement that this has been one of the best games I've ever played. I feel like I'm going to get some people saying this or that about it. I say it's one of the best games I've played based on my personal enjoyment of the game. I'm well aware of its faults but I genuinely enjoyed this game so much that it takes a place among my top most enjoyed.
This was my first Tomb Raider game so maybe all TR games have this vibe but I loved the feel of accomplishment in this game. Not only does it make you feel good after solving something but it makes you feel like you're actually DOING something. A lot of the times, I find puzzle games annoying because I just don't get the point of the puzzle (why it's there, why the heck I would do it) or the actions involved in the puzzle are really boring (like pick this up, put it there, run back and pick something else up, put it else where). I really liked the fact that I was solving puzzles so Lara could GET somewhere. Not sure if I'm making myself clear but I really connected with Lara and liked getting her to her destinations.
Inconsistencies with the original TR:
I'm aware that this game isn't an exact replica of the first TR game. I know it left out some things or added this or that. The specifics I do not know but personally it makes no difference to me. Those who have a gripe with it do because they were expecting everything they saw in TR. As a TR newbie I really had no problems with this flaw.
Graphics:
I'm very glad they made TR:A because to be honest, I probably would never have experienced any part of TR 1 otherwise. I'm not exactly a graphics whore (I don't really care for crazy detail or life like textures... I don't drool over the graphics of Crysis 2 or anything) but I don't particularly like old 90's era graphics (Another reason I probably would never have played TR 1, unrelated to graphics, is that I hate old school controls). I really liked TR:A's graphics. They weren't up to today's standards but I liked the feel of it. It was modern enough yet had its own... personality to it. Weird as that sounds.
Combat Controls:
You've heard me say SO many times in this LP that Lara is sometimes hard to control in combat. You're probably tired of hearing it since I bitched about it so much! But I looked around at some reviews of this game and it turns out it's not just my personal inability that made it seem like Lara wasn't doing what I told her to... it's a real problem. Other people have said too that the camera and directional controls were really awkward during combat and I will definitely agree. I mean, it's not fun clicking the mouse to continuously shoot for 30 minutes of a boss fight because that's the only way I can get the camera to cooperate and therefore the only way I will get Lara to go the way I want her to most of the time.
The headshot thing was an interesting idea but it did not execute well. Reason being what I just described above... Lara does not go the direction you think she will unless the camera is just right. So outside of boss battles if the game threw me an enemy with headshot inducing abilities I could not do it because I hadn't readied the camera for it.
Poor introduction of some mechanics:
This game's beginning was nice; it was a little tutorial area with little pop ups telling you how to do things, etc. But later in the game it introduced new elements without actually telling you about it. The perpendicular wall jump off the grapple was crazy hard for me simply because I didn't know HOW to do it... Never mind that, how about the fact that I didn't even know it was possible in the first place? Even after accomplishing it in that room where I first encountered it, I still didn't know how to actually do it. It's only near the end of the game (that room with tons of pillars where I inserted two pieces of the scion) that I finally figured it out. What about the speed jump off of poles? I had no idea I could do that until I discovered it by accident in the Obelisk of Khamoon when I just happened to tap space twice. Even then I didn't know that you had to be pressing the direction she's going until that huge water room much later.
Was it all in Croft Manor? I have no clue. Either way, a player isn't guaranteed to play CM first anyways so mechanic introduction should be in the main game.
Reflections:
Even with these faults though, I really enjoyed the game. Not only was this my first TR game but it was my first puzzle platformer. I understand that a lot of viewers probably got pretty frustrated at me at some points because I just would not a see a simple solution; but my counter to that is a psychology based one. I have never played a game like this before so all these puzzles are new to me. Even if someone plays this game for the first time, if they have experience in other games of the same genre, then they have a "schema" in their mind for what to expect in certain situations. Most puzzles aren't 100% unique but take traditional puzzle elements such as "pull a lever and something, somewhere will happen". Now, that particular schema I obviously had... but other more complex ones I did not.
It was interesting to myself to see my own progress. When I first started this game I found it hard to get into because everything was new to me. I had no previous experiences to relate to; therefore, that meant more brain power; therefore, it was something my brain regards as work. It was only half-way or even 3/4 through the game that I truly started enjoying it as much as I said I did because now I had all these experiences that told me what to look for, what I could expect, what a probable solution might be, etc.
More Tomb Raider?:
The day after finishing TR:A I downloaded TR: Legend (from Steam, silly) because I felt my fun with Tomb Raider was just beginning. TR:A laid down some basics for me and at the end I was really starting to get it. I didn't want it to end there so the adventure continues in TR: Legend (which, btw, I am happy to find is a lot like TR:A). I thought about LPing TR: Legend as well but decided against it. I want to experience a TR game without the recording going on. Believe it or not, it does make a difference. With a recording going I'm less likely to try a variety of things and more likely to miss things in my desire to not waste time. That's actually true of all my LPs. I won't speak definitively for other LPers but that's probably the case for a lot of people.
Not only that but the reason it took me so long to finish TR:A is because of the editing involved in the TR videos. Even though I try to not waste time, it's a puzzle game... I'm obviously going to have to stand around gathering information, trying and failing, etc. I have to go through the videos and try to balance things out so the video isn't TOO boring. I need to leave in parts where I explain my thinking and parts where I try something (and either fail or succeed), cut out needless repetition due to death or jump fails, and make sure that if anything new happens, it's shown in the video. It can take anywhere from 10 - 60 minutes to edit a TR:A video. The finale took me about an hour to edit... which is longer than it took to record it. It'll be nice to just go through a TR game without gaps where I'm editing.
Tuesday, 12 June 2012
Skyrim Makes Me Sick
Those of you who either talk a lot with me, watch my videos, or interact with me a lot on the forums may know that I have not completely enjoyed Skyrim. I guess it was a combination of many things, one of which is that I did have high expectations and didn't really feel like they were entirely met. I don't have a phenomenal gaming computer (in fact, I have a MacBook Pro running Windows Vista on a partition) so the graphics settings aren't exactly great (but I can still run it at moderate settings fairly well) so maybe that's why, but I felt like the game felt... lifeless. It tried to copy real life so much that it lacked vibrance. Also factor in the fact that it takes place in the Nordic regions where there naturally is just a lot of white and brown and you get a rather... colourless game. The combat feels way too boring though some people have recommended playing a melee or bow character instead of my customary mage. As a mage, so far it's just pressing L&R mouse buttons together and just pointing it. I don't really feel engaged at all with the story and I just feel a bit lost as to who my character is. Usually I can just invent something and I get attached to my characters easily... but not so with Skyrim.
There. You have the bulk of my complaints with Skyrim. However, the biggest one is that Skyrim just makes me sick. Literally. When I play Skyrim I feel nauseous and the hollow between my eyes and brow bone start hurting. The first time I ever encountered a game I felt physically ill with was an LP I was watching on YouTube. I could not watch although I liked the game and commentator due to the fact that I felt so nauseous watching it. Since then I haven't had the problem. But alas, Skyrim enters my life and here I meet once again: another game that makes me physically ill. At first I didn't pair the game and the symptoms together but soon it became clear that playing Skyrim caused me to have motion sickness.
I felt a bit stupid. I mean really. It's a game... and I'm sitting here feeling motion sick because of it?! Of course the immediate thought in my head was "am I the only one who's sensitive enough to get sick like this?" A quick google search shows... no, of course not. In fact, there's a lot more people who suffer from video game motion sickness than I thought. It's not just the first-person-view of the game. If it was, I'd feel sick playing Fallout 3 and Fallout: New Vegas too... but I do not. So what is it? A little article on About.com takes some guesses about the head-bobbing, weapon-bobbing, and lack of focal points but they freely admit their speculations are purely from their own experiences. I don't know what it is for me. I walk around without my weapons drawn in both FNV and Skyrim so it's not weapon bob. Do either of those games have head-bobbing? I never noticed it but perhaps Skyrim has it...? Google time.
Yep. In fact, the top results are people asking how to turn it off and one guy says his wife has motion sickness. It looks like FNV does not have head-bobbing, only weapon bobbing. So it's probably the head-bobbing. So after this revelation I have decided that I will no longer voice my opinions on Skyrim. It wouldn't be fair to the game; I would obviously be biased by the fact that whenever I play it I am in a state of physical illness. Obviously, I would not enjoy the experience and obviously that would taint my view of the game.
I just hope I can somehow overcome it or get around it so I can play what may be a quality game. I also feel very bad since someone gifted it to me =/.
There. You have the bulk of my complaints with Skyrim. However, the biggest one is that Skyrim just makes me sick. Literally. When I play Skyrim I feel nauseous and the hollow between my eyes and brow bone start hurting. The first time I ever encountered a game I felt physically ill with was an LP I was watching on YouTube. I could not watch although I liked the game and commentator due to the fact that I felt so nauseous watching it. Since then I haven't had the problem. But alas, Skyrim enters my life and here I meet once again: another game that makes me physically ill. At first I didn't pair the game and the symptoms together but soon it became clear that playing Skyrim caused me to have motion sickness.
I felt a bit stupid. I mean really. It's a game... and I'm sitting here feeling motion sick because of it?! Of course the immediate thought in my head was "am I the only one who's sensitive enough to get sick like this?" A quick google search shows... no, of course not. In fact, there's a lot more people who suffer from video game motion sickness than I thought. It's not just the first-person-view of the game. If it was, I'd feel sick playing Fallout 3 and Fallout: New Vegas too... but I do not. So what is it? A little article on About.com takes some guesses about the head-bobbing, weapon-bobbing, and lack of focal points but they freely admit their speculations are purely from their own experiences. I don't know what it is for me. I walk around without my weapons drawn in both FNV and Skyrim so it's not weapon bob. Do either of those games have head-bobbing? I never noticed it but perhaps Skyrim has it...? Google time.
Yep. In fact, the top results are people asking how to turn it off and one guy says his wife has motion sickness. It looks like FNV does not have head-bobbing, only weapon bobbing. So it's probably the head-bobbing. So after this revelation I have decided that I will no longer voice my opinions on Skyrim. It wouldn't be fair to the game; I would obviously be biased by the fact that whenever I play it I am in a state of physical illness. Obviously, I would not enjoy the experience and obviously that would taint my view of the game.
I just hope I can somehow overcome it or get around it so I can play what may be a quality game. I also feel very bad since someone gifted it to me =/.
Tuesday, 29 May 2012
Pronouncing Words "Correctly" in English
Two months ago, I came across an LP video in which the player was playing as the Iroquois. I forget what game it was but it's entirely inconsequential to this post. In the video, the commentator was pronouncing the name Iroquois as "ir-ro-koi" which a lot of people do... but I tend to look at that as the wrong pronunciation. The name Iroquois is French and thus takes the French pronunciation rules; under which it would be pronounced "ir-ro-kwah". It's how it was taught in my school and by the word's origins, the correct way to say it. I left a comment about how it's pronounced the latter way instead of the former and the commentator responded to me with a "I know, I speak French." I did not further comment on it as I wasn't about to get in his face about it. After all, a lot of people DO pronounce Iroquois with "koi" rather than "kwah".
Then recently I got a reply on my comment which made me return to that video and those comments. I won't get into the reply I got as it turned into a mess of stupidity on which I do not care to longer dwell than I already have. In any case, I saw that someone had replied to the commentator's claim to speaking French and asked him, "then why do you pronounce it wrong?" to which he replied, "I'm speaking English so I will say things with English pronunciation." That is the topic of today's post.
His response kind of baffled me. It seemed rather... ignorant. Take some other words in the English language that have derivatives in other languages for examples. One such word is the word "debut". If you were anal in your insistence in pronouncing things purely in English, then that word would have to be pronounced much like the word "rebuttal" is pronounced: "dee-butt". Now doesn't that just sound silly?
What about the word herb? In England people DO pronounce it with the H but in North America it is pronounced "erb". In fact, I've seen plenty of people be very particular in this regard... almost to the point of making themselves look like an ignorant dumb ass. So does that commentator pronounce herb with the H? Seeing as how he's from North America, I kind of doubt it. How about the word milieu? We do not pronounce that "mil-li-u". Genre is not "jen-re". Lingerie is not "ling-ger-ee" or "lin-ger-ee". Chalet is not "cha-let"... and so on and so forth.
Now don't get me wrong. I'm not all worked up or anything... nor am I really arguing that everyone should pronounce Iroquois as "kwah" and not "koi". Sure, *I* think "kwah" is the correct way but if thousands of people pronounce it "koi" then whatever. My problem however was his response of "I'm speaking English, therefore I will say things with English pronunciation." That is truly a dumb thing to say when EVERYONE who speaks English goes out of the true English pronunciation for certain words. That is.. everyone who is not an idiot. So if "chalet" is to be pronounced "sha-leh" in English, why not "ir-ro-kwah"?
Then recently I got a reply on my comment which made me return to that video and those comments. I won't get into the reply I got as it turned into a mess of stupidity on which I do not care to longer dwell than I already have. In any case, I saw that someone had replied to the commentator's claim to speaking French and asked him, "then why do you pronounce it wrong?" to which he replied, "I'm speaking English so I will say things with English pronunciation." That is the topic of today's post.
His response kind of baffled me. It seemed rather... ignorant. Take some other words in the English language that have derivatives in other languages for examples. One such word is the word "debut". If you were anal in your insistence in pronouncing things purely in English, then that word would have to be pronounced much like the word "rebuttal" is pronounced: "dee-butt". Now doesn't that just sound silly?
What about the word herb? In England people DO pronounce it with the H but in North America it is pronounced "erb". In fact, I've seen plenty of people be very particular in this regard... almost to the point of making themselves look like an ignorant dumb ass. So does that commentator pronounce herb with the H? Seeing as how he's from North America, I kind of doubt it. How about the word milieu? We do not pronounce that "mil-li-u". Genre is not "jen-re". Lingerie is not "ling-ger-ee" or "lin-ger-ee". Chalet is not "cha-let"... and so on and so forth.
Now don't get me wrong. I'm not all worked up or anything... nor am I really arguing that everyone should pronounce Iroquois as "kwah" and not "koi". Sure, *I* think "kwah" is the correct way but if thousands of people pronounce it "koi" then whatever. My problem however was his response of "I'm speaking English, therefore I will say things with English pronunciation." That is truly a dumb thing to say when EVERYONE who speaks English goes out of the true English pronunciation for certain words. That is.. everyone who is not an idiot. So if "chalet" is to be pronounced "sha-leh" in English, why not "ir-ro-kwah"?
Tuesday, 8 May 2012
Fallout: New Vegas Troubles
My Fallout: New Vegas LP has been put on pause momentarily due to the fact that I cannot seem to get the game to load properly. It's very odd; it worked just fine then a week later I go to play it again and it will not work. First sign of something wrong was when it would not load my mouse once I launched the game. If you own FNV or FO3 then you know that if you click during the intro it skips forward to the menu screen. Well I could not do that which puzzled me. Once it got to the menu screen itself it didn't load the actual menu for a long long time. Just sat there with that picture of the character with the gas mask and revolver. Finally it loads the menus so I press continue and it takes me to the loading screen. Round and round the roulette goes, where it stops.... who the fuck knows. It just kept going for SO long that I ended up having to force exit the game. Even THAT was hard to do because it refused to minimize the game so I had to put my computer to sleep, wake it up, at which point it froze for a while then exit the game in the processes.
I am by no means a techie person but I doubt that I'd be able to figure it out even if I was. I replicated the above three times. No changes whatsoever. I know they say it's stupid to try the same thing over and over again but I find that an exception exists with computers... especially after rebooting the thing. But no, not this time. After some google searching I've got a couple things that I might try out but not at the moment. I just don't feel like messing with the damned thing right now. I'm just in that kind of mood where the prospect of dealing with something like that makes me just feel exhausted already.
I already liked Fallout 3 over Fallout: New Vegas but the number of glitches, bugs, and now this that I have to deal with with FNV makes me kind of tired of it and biases me against it more. Don't get me wrong, I'm still enjoying the game and think it's a good game... but it's raising Fallout 3 more in my eyes.
I guess the biggest issue I have with FNV right now is that I feel completely... objective-less. Fallout 3 at least still had a over arching motivation for my character: finding her dad, then fulfilling her parents' dream of pure water for everyone. But FNV? What the heck is my character doing? Gaining power? For what? The starting motivation of finding Billy who "killed" me is long since dealt with since I punched him to death in front of Mr. Happy-Go-Lucky.
Maybe I'll feel differently once I get further in the main quest or do some of the DLCs.
I am by no means a techie person but I doubt that I'd be able to figure it out even if I was. I replicated the above three times. No changes whatsoever. I know they say it's stupid to try the same thing over and over again but I find that an exception exists with computers... especially after rebooting the thing. But no, not this time. After some google searching I've got a couple things that I might try out but not at the moment. I just don't feel like messing with the damned thing right now. I'm just in that kind of mood where the prospect of dealing with something like that makes me just feel exhausted already.
I already liked Fallout 3 over Fallout: New Vegas but the number of glitches, bugs, and now this that I have to deal with with FNV makes me kind of tired of it and biases me against it more. Don't get me wrong, I'm still enjoying the game and think it's a good game... but it's raising Fallout 3 more in my eyes.
I guess the biggest issue I have with FNV right now is that I feel completely... objective-less. Fallout 3 at least still had a over arching motivation for my character: finding her dad, then fulfilling her parents' dream of pure water for everyone. But FNV? What the heck is my character doing? Gaining power? For what? The starting motivation of finding Billy who "killed" me is long since dealt with since I punched him to death in front of Mr. Happy-Go-Lucky.
Maybe I'll feel differently once I get further in the main quest or do some of the DLCs.
Monday, 12 March 2012
The University Dorm Life
No, I'm not talking about parties, having friends just next door, being able to do w/e the fuck because you're out on your own. Sure those things DO happen but so many times I see people who are about to embark on their new University Dorm life overlook all the variety of other things that come with the package. They just think about the prospect of being out on their own and amongst their friends all the time and get crazed about that. I've lived in dorm for almost two years now and dorm life is not as awesome as Hollywood movies make it out to be.
You truly don't know what you have until you've lost it... that is, home life. Even living in your own house by yourself is a pretty different experience from dorm life. Depending on your age, family situation, and/or parents' parenting style, the following will vary but you'll get the general gist of it. First of all is just the fact of not having your family there with you. Some people have absolutely no problem with this... and to be honest, I didn't think I'd have that much of an issue with it either. I've never been that close with my family yet being away from them sucks. I miss them all so much, not even for the things they do for me but just their presence. It's actually made me closer to my parents as we started to value each other more.
That's not to say that I don't miss the things my parents did for me. My mom did the laundry, made all the meals, did baking on the side, and went grocery shopping. I didn't need to worry about doing the dishes all the time (and not having things to eat with if I don't do them) and when I did the laundry, it didn't cost me. If ever I needed anything, it was all there. That sentence didn't exactly come out right... you probably think that I was fed everything on a silver spoon. No, what I mean is if I just bought a salad and brought it home and realized that they forgot the dressing packet for it, I'd have some in the fridge at home. In my dorm? Not so. True story as of 5 minutes ago. Bought salad today so I could have it for my late night snack... opened it a while ago and no dressing.
Living in dorm you get used to just not having certain things because it'd just be too much to all have. I'm not going to have a bottle of salad dressing in my room because I might need it one day. As you get more and more used to these small little incidents piling up you learn to kind of make do with what you have. Improvisation, if you know what I mean. I just had my salad with a strawberry and banana fruit smoothie for dressing. Strange, but again, improv. (It actually tasted okay) Another instance of something like this is when I was cooking in my room. I was making a Korean soup called kimchi gijae and then realized I needed sugar but had none. Without the sugar the soup was a bit lacking. So what do you use for sugar substitute? Coka cola of course. The chair they provided here is just a school-type plastic chair. It's too high when I sit on it and triggers my restless leg syndrome which exhausts my legs. Can't really go out and get a new chair, so what do I do? Put a cardboard box under my desk as a foot rest so my feet can lie flat. Out of cutlery/cups? Use and reuse plastic ones. Salvage plastic bowls from microwave dinners. Use and, yes, reuse paper plates. List goes on and on.
The above kind of sounded like I'm complaining, but I'm really not. I'm just saying I never foresaw these little circumstances that would come up as a result of being a single person living in a room only momentarily (8 months). Things would, indeed, be a lot different if I was a single person living in a room permanently... or even for 2 years straight. But living in a room for 8 months, moving out, then moving into a different room after 4 months home to live there for just another 8 months... rinse and repeat; it's... different, to say the least. There are just so many things I don't and/or can't buy because of this circumstance. Not to mention not having a car makes everything a pain in the ass. Even if I did have enough money for a car and owned one, how in the world would I manage it living in Kingston, Ontario for 8 months, then for 4 months in Vancouver, British Columbia. Where would I park it? Where would I put so many of those little things that I lack right now? I don't really think a lot of people pre-dorm life ever really think about these tiny things. I know I sure didn't.
This post kind of went off the rails of what I originally wanted to include... but I think I'll just stop here for today as it's 2:09 am and I am tired!
You truly don't know what you have until you've lost it... that is, home life. Even living in your own house by yourself is a pretty different experience from dorm life. Depending on your age, family situation, and/or parents' parenting style, the following will vary but you'll get the general gist of it. First of all is just the fact of not having your family there with you. Some people have absolutely no problem with this... and to be honest, I didn't think I'd have that much of an issue with it either. I've never been that close with my family yet being away from them sucks. I miss them all so much, not even for the things they do for me but just their presence. It's actually made me closer to my parents as we started to value each other more.
That's not to say that I don't miss the things my parents did for me. My mom did the laundry, made all the meals, did baking on the side, and went grocery shopping. I didn't need to worry about doing the dishes all the time (and not having things to eat with if I don't do them) and when I did the laundry, it didn't cost me. If ever I needed anything, it was all there. That sentence didn't exactly come out right... you probably think that I was fed everything on a silver spoon. No, what I mean is if I just bought a salad and brought it home and realized that they forgot the dressing packet for it, I'd have some in the fridge at home. In my dorm? Not so. True story as of 5 minutes ago. Bought salad today so I could have it for my late night snack... opened it a while ago and no dressing.
Living in dorm you get used to just not having certain things because it'd just be too much to all have. I'm not going to have a bottle of salad dressing in my room because I might need it one day. As you get more and more used to these small little incidents piling up you learn to kind of make do with what you have. Improvisation, if you know what I mean. I just had my salad with a strawberry and banana fruit smoothie for dressing. Strange, but again, improv. (It actually tasted okay) Another instance of something like this is when I was cooking in my room. I was making a Korean soup called kimchi gijae and then realized I needed sugar but had none. Without the sugar the soup was a bit lacking. So what do you use for sugar substitute? Coka cola of course. The chair they provided here is just a school-type plastic chair. It's too high when I sit on it and triggers my restless leg syndrome which exhausts my legs. Can't really go out and get a new chair, so what do I do? Put a cardboard box under my desk as a foot rest so my feet can lie flat. Out of cutlery/cups? Use and reuse plastic ones. Salvage plastic bowls from microwave dinners. Use and, yes, reuse paper plates. List goes on and on.
The above kind of sounded like I'm complaining, but I'm really not. I'm just saying I never foresaw these little circumstances that would come up as a result of being a single person living in a room only momentarily (8 months). Things would, indeed, be a lot different if I was a single person living in a room permanently... or even for 2 years straight. But living in a room for 8 months, moving out, then moving into a different room after 4 months home to live there for just another 8 months... rinse and repeat; it's... different, to say the least. There are just so many things I don't and/or can't buy because of this circumstance. Not to mention not having a car makes everything a pain in the ass. Even if I did have enough money for a car and owned one, how in the world would I manage it living in Kingston, Ontario for 8 months, then for 4 months in Vancouver, British Columbia. Where would I park it? Where would I put so many of those little things that I lack right now? I don't really think a lot of people pre-dorm life ever really think about these tiny things. I know I sure didn't.
This post kind of went off the rails of what I originally wanted to include... but I think I'll just stop here for today as it's 2:09 am and I am tired!
Wednesday, 29 February 2012
A Discussion on the Freedom of Speech
I used to love but now hate getting an e-mail from YouTube Service called, "Reply from [username] on [video title]". Really, when I got these I used to like having a chat with whoever it was who thought my comment worth replying to. Whether it was someone agreeing with, disputing, discussing, questioning, or adding to what I said or just joking around, it used to be an enjoyable experience. Everyone likes being part of a community and interacting with it. But now when I see "Reply from.." in my inbox I can feel the pit of my stomach slightly clench in a preemptive wince in preparation for whatever this person has said to me.
You can probably guess that this is due to the fact that as time has gone on, I've gotten more and more stupid responses from people. Stupid, ignorant, self-righteous, head-up-the-ass kind of comments that just make me sigh and wonder what has happened to people these days.
What strikes me the most is this need to voice opinions even when said opinions are not constructive criticism nor asked for. What happened to, "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all"? If you so dislike someone's video, then why leave a hateful comment? A lot of the times when I tell or ask someone these things they usually reply with something along the lines of them having every right to say whatever they please. Freedom of Speech. Though most seem to not phrase it as such. I won't pretend that I am of some old and wise generation; I am not. I am merely 20 years old and sit right with the generation in which these people I write about reside. But for the sake of this piece of writing, indulge me and forget who I am.
To those who invoke the right of Freedom of Speech, I highly recommend you take a moment to google that particular right of yours. I concede, yes, it IS your right. You DO have the freedom of speech and no one can take that away from you. But even a source such a Wikipedia should provide you with knowledge of how this freedom works. The freedom of speech comes with limitations. That's right. You do not get to say whatever you please. That's not what this freedom is about at all.
Let me quote your oh-so-trusty Wikipedia on the Freedom of Speech:
I was raised on the harm principle I suppose. You limit your freedom of speech so that it does not hurt others and so that you follow social etiquette. "Social etiquette" is just fancy speak for manners. Ah, manners: where have you gone? What has possessed this generation that manners seem to have been wholly thrown out the window?
It frankly quite disgusts me: reading what some kids have to say while wielding their faulty defense of "Freedom of Speech" when they know nothing of what that even entails. Words cannot express my utter disappointment and frustration at how the minds of our younger generation is being formed. To be blessed as to have had your ancestors fight for these freedoms for you then to turn around and practically defile the name of the freedom: it's... disgusting.
I take a moment here to remind you of my request for you to forget who I am because no doubt there will be some who read this who will be eager to point out any faults of mine. Instead, reflect on how this topic relates to you and how your actions have been thus far. Concern yourself not with me but with yourself (another huge topic which I will discuss another day).
The freedom of speech is for exchanging ideas, challenging ideas, fighting against injustice or wrongs, and yes, for voicing our opinions. But these are all subject to manners. When you see someone acting in a manner that is disagreeable to you, do not demean yourself by letting bitterness and hate be the flavour of your words. Either move on or approach them in a manner that is constructive towards the other. Also keep in mind that perhaps what is disagreeable to you may not be disagreeable to others. Especially in a place like the internet, there's more than enough room for you to remove yourself elsewhere and away from those who are disagreeable to you. If you should encounter one who would cause you harm through their speech, save your dignity and respond not in kind but with your manners intact or perhaps do not respond at all. If everyone could start to do these things then truly the world would be a better place.
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A post script, if you will: Now that my piece of writing is done I may now reflect on myself and how I relate to the above. I admit with absolutely no qualms that I have NOT followed the above perfectly myself. I do not fault you if you haven't either. The case where everyone acts as such all the time would be an ideal case... but alas, we are human! Add to that fact that I have a temperament of a camel and you can see how I might not have followed the above perfectly. But what counts is that I have been making the effort.
Just before writing this post I had received a reply from someone who was, if I put it lightly, a tad rude. My first instinct was to hiss like cat and spit back venomous words and I went so far as to type it all out. One good thing about me though is that I have a habit of re-reading what I've typed before posting things... and upon reading it over I sighed and deleted it. Instead I wrote a reply in which I simply pointed out how they mistook what I said and left it at that. Never mind the fact that I thought that interpreting my words in the manner which they did must have taken a great deal of ingenious stupidity. Keep thoughts like that to yourself and say merely what is necessary.
You can probably guess that this is due to the fact that as time has gone on, I've gotten more and more stupid responses from people. Stupid, ignorant, self-righteous, head-up-the-ass kind of comments that just make me sigh and wonder what has happened to people these days.
What strikes me the most is this need to voice opinions even when said opinions are not constructive criticism nor asked for. What happened to, "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all"? If you so dislike someone's video, then why leave a hateful comment? A lot of the times when I tell or ask someone these things they usually reply with something along the lines of them having every right to say whatever they please. Freedom of Speech. Though most seem to not phrase it as such. I won't pretend that I am of some old and wise generation; I am not. I am merely 20 years old and sit right with the generation in which these people I write about reside. But for the sake of this piece of writing, indulge me and forget who I am.
To those who invoke the right of Freedom of Speech, I highly recommend you take a moment to google that particular right of yours. I concede, yes, it IS your right. You DO have the freedom of speech and no one can take that away from you. But even a source such a Wikipedia should provide you with knowledge of how this freedom works. The freedom of speech comes with limitations. That's right. You do not get to say whatever you please. That's not what this freedom is about at all.
Let me quote your oh-so-trusty Wikipedia on the Freedom of Speech:
"In practice, the right to freedom of speech is not absolute in any country and the right is commonly subject to limitations, as with libel, slander, obscenity and incitement to commit a crime.
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Limitations to freedom of speech may follow the "harm principle" or the "offense principle", for example in the case of pornography, religious belief or hate speech. Limitations to freedom of speech may occur through legal sanction or social disapprobation, or both."The harm principle:
"The only purpose for which power can be rightfully exercised over any member of a civilized community, against his will, is to prevent harm to others." -John Stuart Mill
I was raised on the harm principle I suppose. You limit your freedom of speech so that it does not hurt others and so that you follow social etiquette. "Social etiquette" is just fancy speak for manners. Ah, manners: where have you gone? What has possessed this generation that manners seem to have been wholly thrown out the window?
It frankly quite disgusts me: reading what some kids have to say while wielding their faulty defense of "Freedom of Speech" when they know nothing of what that even entails. Words cannot express my utter disappointment and frustration at how the minds of our younger generation is being formed. To be blessed as to have had your ancestors fight for these freedoms for you then to turn around and practically defile the name of the freedom: it's... disgusting.
I take a moment here to remind you of my request for you to forget who I am because no doubt there will be some who read this who will be eager to point out any faults of mine. Instead, reflect on how this topic relates to you and how your actions have been thus far. Concern yourself not with me but with yourself (another huge topic which I will discuss another day).
The freedom of speech is for exchanging ideas, challenging ideas, fighting against injustice or wrongs, and yes, for voicing our opinions. But these are all subject to manners. When you see someone acting in a manner that is disagreeable to you, do not demean yourself by letting bitterness and hate be the flavour of your words. Either move on or approach them in a manner that is constructive towards the other. Also keep in mind that perhaps what is disagreeable to you may not be disagreeable to others. Especially in a place like the internet, there's more than enough room for you to remove yourself elsewhere and away from those who are disagreeable to you. If you should encounter one who would cause you harm through their speech, save your dignity and respond not in kind but with your manners intact or perhaps do not respond at all. If everyone could start to do these things then truly the world would be a better place.
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A post script, if you will: Now that my piece of writing is done I may now reflect on myself and how I relate to the above. I admit with absolutely no qualms that I have NOT followed the above perfectly myself. I do not fault you if you haven't either. The case where everyone acts as such all the time would be an ideal case... but alas, we are human! Add to that fact that I have a temperament of a camel and you can see how I might not have followed the above perfectly. But what counts is that I have been making the effort.
Just before writing this post I had received a reply from someone who was, if I put it lightly, a tad rude. My first instinct was to hiss like cat and spit back venomous words and I went so far as to type it all out. One good thing about me though is that I have a habit of re-reading what I've typed before posting things... and upon reading it over I sighed and deleted it. Instead I wrote a reply in which I simply pointed out how they mistook what I said and left it at that. Never mind the fact that I thought that interpreting my words in the manner which they did must have taken a great deal of ingenious stupidity. Keep thoughts like that to yourself and say merely what is necessary.
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